Hey kids, what up this week?
Well i was pretty excited that i managed a loss this week, i pretty much ate over my points for a couple of days in a row, but i lost .4kg for a total loss of 6.8kg over 5 weeks. Yay team Heidi!! I am actually feeling really good about this weight loss journey, and i am feeling so relived that i am doing something positive for me for once. Although i think i might be self sabotaging myself, by eating over my points and not exercising. I really want to do good, and be good, but i think I'm scared of what i could become. I have never ever been a slim person, and i don't know if i am ready for such a big change.... i guess ill just have to stay strong, believe in myself and just do it!!

I am very tired i have been working basically full time, and my body is not used to getting up so early. I am defiantly a night owl, i just don't function in the morning. As far as i am concerned we would all be better off if morning was in the afternoon. Not really sure how that would work, but its a good idea!

Alright, i am going to bed now, time for an early night. Thanks for dropping by and sharing my journey with me, Much Love, Heidi xx

i was convinced.. CONVINCED that i was gonna put on, or at least stay the same this week, as i have been the BIGGEST chocolate monster in the world. I just can't get enough of that chocolately goodness. I stuffed myself last night, and although i ended up eating saved points, i just feel so dissappointed in myself. And i feel so bloated and yuk! (serves me right hey??)
Anywho, they scales played games with my mind first show 104.9 (which was a .9kg gain!!!) but i alwasy weigh at least twice to check, and the second time it said 103. SO then i weighed about 6 more times just to check!! I was shocked, surpised and so very excited!! A 1kg loss in my 4th week - amazing!!

Still no deliberate exercise this week, but i really am hoping to improve that.. i'm trying to rally some my friends together and at least walk a couple of times a week. Once we all finish uni for this sem (end of oct by the way - SOO excited) it will be heaps easier to organize times and stuff.

My life is about to get crazy busy for the next few weeks, and i am goining to HAVE to get organised if i wanna continue to lose weight.Firstly its the last 3 weeks on uni, when all teh assignments are due, and we start panicing about exams and extra assessments. ERGHH It is NOT something i am looking forward too, but am hoping that i can at least scrape through.
Secondly... I work causal at the COmmunity Mental Health Services, and usually only get 1 shift a fortnight. Well i must be flavour of the month coz i have 10 8 hour days in the next 3 weeks!! I'm gonna be stuffed, becasue i am still keeping my regular shifts at coles as well.
Oh, and last, by not least, the local show that i play in the band for, is on in October. Its called STrzelecki SHowtime, its a scout guide show that i've been involved in for years, but only last year joined the band instead of being on stage. I love it, but its hard work. (i ahven't even learnt all the songs yet) and apart from that its gonna be hard to hangout with these guys and lose weight. We have a tradition of going to La Porchettas after every show for dinner - FATTY FATTY PIZZA! and they drink... A LOT! I hope i am strong enough to realise that i don't have to... or at least save up points so i can!!! (lol)

Thanks for dropping by, and sharing my journey with me, Much Love, Heidi xx

Alright so for week 3 i lost .6 kilos which took me to a grand total of 5.4kilos, which means i got my first 5kg! Thats right, First 5kg, becasue there are gonna be many more to come.
It also means that i get my first rewards, which is a new lipstick or lip gloss to make me feel all pretty!
I've been going pretty well with my food and portions, but exercise is still a bit of an issue. I'm thinking about taking maybe a body pump, or spin class, but joining a gym is just so damm expensive, and as a student, i don't really have the money o splash around like that. I mean i had to save to be able to afford to join Weight Watchers!

Another thing i've been meaning to post is my rewards that i am going to give myself when (thats right WHEN) i reach my goals.

Lose 5kg: 104.4 Lipstick/gloss - to make me feel pretty
In double digits: 99.9kg Scrubs Season 1 (its been over a year since i was under 100)
Lose 10kg: 99.4 Magazine - Cleo or Cosmo or both....
10% Loss: 98.5 Nailpolish - something fun!!!
Lose 15kg: 94.4kg Movies - with the boy.. romantic much!! (i think this was about my weight when we first got together)
In the 80's: 89.8 Scrubs Season 2 (i really can't remember last time i was in the 80's)
Lose 20kg: 89.4kg Undies - I LOVE UNDIES!! (they are my weakness)
Lose 25kg: 84.4kg New Makeup - professionally matched
In the 70's: 79.9kg Scrubs Season 3
Lose 30kg: 79.4 Indoor Go Karting or Paintballing
Lose 35kg: 74.4kg Spa Treatment - spa, massage, facial... everything!!
Lose 39.4/GOAL: 70kg!!! My happiness and health!!! The best reward i think

Well i'll be back later, i think i'm gonna get into thsi blogging thing. Thanks for dropping by, Keep coming back and sharing my journey with me.
Much love, Heidi xx

Ok... so this is my first ever blog.. and i don't really know what to write.
Hi, I'm Heidi. I'm 20 years old, and i am hoping that keeping a blog will keep me motivated and accountable for my weight loss journey.

Basically.. I'm Fat. I know it, everyone can see it, there is no denying it. BUT the good thing is.. I DONT HAVE TO STAY THIS WAY. and i'm not.
I'm sick of being fat. I am sick of not being able to go shopping with my friends (coz i'm too embarrassed) and i'm sick of not enjoying life becasue my FAT is holding me back.

2 weeks ago i joined Weight Watchers Online. and ... I LOVE IT!
It is SO motivated and inspiring and i just love the message boards, and i just KNOW that i am going to succeed with my weight loss this time becasue i finally have the support i need!!

My start weight was 109.4, not my heaviest i might add, but not good nevertheless.
In my first week i lost 3.3 kilos!!! Taking me down to 106.1. In my second week i lost another 1.1kilos, which leaves me now at 104.6. I weigh in on Mondays, so only 3 more days to go now to see what week 3 has brought me!

Well thanks for dropping by, Keep coming back and sharing my journey with me.
Much love, Heidi xx